Here is a fun story. When I first started blogging, I had to choose a name for the site. It was a few weeks before college. With little care in the world and nothing to do, I felt listless most days. So I knew it was going to be listless something. After much thought, I narrowed the choices down to link and ink. I considered Listless Link for a long time; the alliteration just rolls off the tongue so well. In the end though, I went with Listless Ink for several reasons. One is that I had a naïve dream of starting my own company some day. Thus, the title of the company would, of course, be Listless, inc.
Since then, anime has really influenced this blog. At the same time though, blogging has affected my experience with anime. Am I blogging so I can recreate the experience with anime? Or am I watching anime so I can have something fun to blog about?
This issue is further complicated by blog statistics. Two years ago, I did not care whether I had 15 hits today and 100 hits tomorrow. I did not care if no one left comments in a post I spent two hours on. Sure, it was nice to have a comment or two, but that was not something I thrived on. At some point, however, I started to care about these things. I chased after readers, looked up ways to gain traffic, and catered my writing to the niche. I even changed some aspects of my anime watching habits so I can create relevant content for the blog. While this is not a bad thing, there are days when everything feels like a chore.
A while ago, I got a comment on a page: “Stop trying to create work for yourself .”
The comment forced me to take a step back and think about what I want from all of this: blogging for anime or anime for blogging. It is probably a bit of both, but does it really even matter?
What I want is to have fun.
And fun for me means not caring too much about the ups and downs of hits. It means that I should not be bogged down by the nitty gritty logistics of blogging. It also means loving the comments and the successes of posts.
Most importantly, it means watching the ecchi yuri OVA, Sono Hanabira ni Kuchizuke wo, coming out today.